"My Birthday"

Early in the morning, i had a car drive learning...felt happy because i know how the basic of driving car slowly and slowly...not bad...one day i will not let others potong my car and look down on me...^6^..
3pm my mum fetched me and my sis go to Jasco to learn how to promote notebook on this Fri, Sat and Sun pc fair( haven do revision..ish!! liao lah!)...took so long time to learn and have to explain again to the supervisor..finally end at 6pm something, my dear wait me so long and missed the 50% discount sushi..haiz...but we buy some inside Jasco...fetch my sis back home, and we go to "王朝" have our dinner...at night we go to watch movie "人间喜剧"...Not bad also, very funny both of the main Character...haha...

My dear cut his hair ad..haha..he did many thing for me..a warm feeling go through my whole body and deeply in my heart...i love you, my dear...Today i watch a short video, very touching..."如果不小心我们白头偕老,上帝保佑我们恩爱依然"..haha...

12am 28.7.2010 my birthday cake...<3

My ice cream cake..^^make by my sisters...

Thanks you all...^^

"深夜里"

突然想写blog,  绑起留了很久的头发, 发觉它长了不少... 
明天要去练驾车, 这次uncle最好别再放我飞机, 不然剪了他的飞机场...哈哈,变态...= ="
放假没什么plan, this few day just sleep eat and dating...haiz...so lazy and dont want do anything...haven start my revision and course works...ish....list down my course work and revision plan first...have to START, Anna Tan Fang Ying......
1. microeconomics assignment...
2. mpw assignment...
3. quantitative course work
4. micro revision...
5. quantitative revision...
6. account course work...
WAH! so many work have to do...can finish all within this week???? impossible for me...but MUST done all!!!!
Two more day is my birthday....at here thanks my mum born me and take care of me...thank you mum...love you...^^just dare say out at here...
i think my birthday just like that lo..like a normal day...我再也不会对朋友太用心，别说我小气，只是自己曾经用心，却换来感觉你们的不用心,　可能是我自己要求太多了.　不要求很多或很好的礼物，不要求很隆重的庆祝会,　但只要用心是感受到的. but i still appreciate, because you all still remember my birthday and make a special cake to me...before that i tell myself , i will know who is care me when my birthday... now i really know...ok...我放弃了,　一直以来我们的感情从来不是别人想象的好．我放弃你了.　一直以来有我关心你,对你的事都放在心上，虽然我没做的很好．你有事,我一定挺你,　可是我有事,　谁来问候我?　可能你会说,　每个人都要自己站起来,　可能我想要的关心你从来没给我,　也从不在我身上用心．说得好像男女朋友一样,　我们只是朋友．．．重感情的我,　很敏感,　小小的事会让我不开心．也许跟pei yun 一样，人前总是开心，说话伤到人,　有多少人了解？笑脸的背后，内心是悲伤的．真的在霖峰面前，我才是我,　那个最真的我.．有什么特别的?每个人都是这样吧，内心收了无数的秘密，从来也没有真正能无说不谈的知己,　以前的我们我想是的,但现在．．．再也不是单纯的朋友，是我变了还是她？内心的无奈说不出．．很多人认为别人是绕着狮子座的人转,　但我却不是,　只要我一放手,　再也不去接触到她,　我们就会只剩下室友和同学的身份．．唉.．再也不把你的事放在心.．不想再烦这些事．别再我面前出现你们很好的样子．拜托．．．谢谢．．
Have to start hardworking lo...成绩一定要保持...

"Shopping with Jie Mui"

Today activity start from 3.30pm something...go fetch pei li and then meet foo...when saw pei li, she wear so beauty and mature...but me..erm...childish?not actually lah...but is simple lo...lucky foo din wear so long zhong...
No money to shop lo, only got budget to buy shoes..when my RM340 come? i am so poor and pity...god please help me...feel lonely dont know why...no one know me, when with lin feng just i feel happy...where is my friend? where? where? where? where?.....................................................................................................................
I realize that lin feng is really sayang me....thanks my dear...very appreciate you and must...
The cendol ptptn play us lo...make people nervous and then let people disappointed...shit! faster approve me lo..very panic you know...cendol!
haiz..two word "no mood"!!!!!

"Early in the Morning"

6.49am so early i wake up...cant slp again after went to toilet. lefz 1am something just find me, pekcek, i know that he was doing his assignment, but he din send me any msg make me hurt you know...
lsat night i lied to my best friend ( HN), haiz~ i cant tell him the truth, i scare he will look down or bother me if i tell him...hope he will forgive my selfish ...
really dont know why, i moody...bacause of lefz? why? i always no mood because of him? i hate it! dont have any memory between us to make me smile again...
i haven take the undang exam, have to gambateh lo..if not dont know have to wait until when...
目前为止,学业上还没出现很大的问题...希望一直都不会出现, 不想有压力, 希望可以借ptptn...my dad dont need pay too much fees...thanks God...

"改头换面"

改头换面, 将我的部落格改了改,换了换..哈哈...最近又受朋友的感染,开始写回部落格..看见朋友们有个完全属于自己的小小天地,自己也想要一个..这叫心眼不好,哈哈..不停在想我有什么可以写呢?答案始终没出现...

真的觉得自己好不成熟,还是像以前一样,吃朋友的醋, 只不过是少话题了, 只不过对别人好, 更靠近其他人了, 只不过被排在后面了,需要难过吗?

难道我真的那么不可信赖?知心朋友不求多,但一个也没有, 可悲啊~ 要被信赖是件很困难的事, 但偶尔相信我, 我会尽量做得最好...朋友的不信赖,让我觉得难受,虽然我知道我并不是你最要好的朋友,但你却是我认识而且在一起最久的朋友,.当你对我说你不能对我说,让我觉得难过;当你对别人对我来得好,我会伤心;六七年的感情却抵不过一年的她,让我真的....我知道我给予的不多,但....请不要忽略我的感受....

有时我话不多, 没什么话题可聊, 所以尽量想话题, 可是这样好累...

我一直都跟着别人跑, 何时有人永远陪伴在我身边, 不管我是个多闷的人..我男友吗? 那么我的世界不就只有他?男性朋友靠得太近,只怕自己没有那么大的免疫力...

好不安, 怀疑这怀疑那的, 以前我从不相信霖峰身边朋友所说的话, 但现在我犹豫了, 好讨厌这么没自信的自己, 真的好讨厌他身边的蝴蝶. 一个在东,一个在西, 我们能给天长地久的承诺吗? 我担忧, 怀疑的性格,总有一天会让他厌恶的, 我该怎么办好, 控制不了自己去胡思乱想.....

如果注定要分开,倒不如现在来个了结?

我给予不了别人关心, 我又如何要求别人给予关心呢? 我好贪心, 我知道我拥有很多东西了, 但唯一得不到心安.....太在乎别人的眼光了, 无法忽视....

但感恩的是天主给予我的一切都是很好的....让自己脱离了天主, 再也找不着属于我的避难所....

祈求上主, 让我有力量及机会再靠近您...再次感受您的爱...没有您我失去了方向,祈求您带领我....啊们...