❤°●ღ Merry Christmas ღ ●°❤

a Christmas tree in my relative's house

Present that we buy and put under the tree...exchange gift with each others.^^

No.9...this gift's lucky number...

Watch's Box....nice..^^

Titus Watch

wakakaka...my dear dear give me de...

i don't expect he will give me a Christmas present actually...before that day, i still angry him and scold him din celebrate with me during this special day and din give me any gift even it is a small value of the gift. he sure very sad and "wei qu"...haha...still can laugh ah you anna tan, lucky he din angry you...haha...i very love this watch and i need a watch as well. thank you my dear..520 very much...muackssss.......>.<......hehe
so pity my dear buy a expensive gift for me, the money is gone...T.T heart pain for his wallet....
Ｍｅｒｒｙ　Ｃｈｒｉｓｔｍａｓ．．．

平淡的爱情

女人在厨房做饭，男人在客厅陪我下棋。
女人喊：“你进来一下。”声音很大，语气却温柔。男人去了一趟厨房，
只有几步远，用了一溜小跑。

出来时，
他拿着切开的西红柿，边咬边问我：
“该轮到谁走棋？”
我问：“你喜欢吃生西红柿？”

男人一边咬着西红柿，一边抬头瞅瞅厨房：“不太喜欢”
“他为什么喊你 ？”我继续问，“还切了这么一大块”
“她以为我喜欢”。

男人说，
“刚结婚那阵子，家里穷，我又馋，每次炒西红柿，她都要切一块，塞在我的嘴里。
那时，我爱吃，现在，我不太喜欢”

“为什么不告诉她？”
“为什么要告诉她呢？假如她知道，我一直不爱吃她切的西红柿，你想，她会不会很失望”

那盘棋，他赢了。冲着厨房，他扯开嗓子喊：
“老婆，我赢了，吃了你的西红柿，我的精力充沛、思维敏捷````”

爱情需要表达，一起生活久了，爱情的表达就变成了一些鸡毛蒜皮的生活习惯。

比如为爱人沏一杯热茶，给爱人掖好被角，跟爱人开一个小玩笑，往爱人嘴里塞一块西红柿。当然。
茶可能烫了，被角可能没有掖的必要，玩笑可能稍显粗俗，或者西红柿的味道不好。

但是，千万不要拒绝，因为你拒绝的，不是一个动作，而是爱情。

˙•٠•●♥上帝的安排♥●•٠•˙

阿们

在一个教堂里，有一位老人负责看守．

教堂的中央放着一个十字架，是耶稣被钉的样子．
教堂里每天人来人往，每天来祈求上帝的保佑．

老人就想：＂每天这么多人，上帝岂不是很累吗？如果他愿意让我帮他就好了．＂
于是他就问上帝：＂主啊，你每天这么忙，让我帮帮你吧．＂
上帝就回答说：＂那好吧，今天你就帮我一天，但是我先和你说好，无论如何你都不可以说话．＂
＂可以啊＂，老人说．

于是这一天，老人就站在十字架前面．

这时，来了一位贵妇人，她企求道：＂神啊，求您赐给我更多的钱财吧．．．．．＂说完就走了，然而她走时竟忘了拿走她的小提包．老人看到了，很想叫住妇人，然而他想到了神的话－－－无论如何也不能开口．

又来了一个乞丐，他双手合十，祈求到：＂我主啊，请让我每天都不必饿肚子．＂他眼前一亮，看到了妇人落下的小提包，他赶忙打开来一看，那里面有让他眼睛发光的钞票！他连忙感谢神，跑出了教堂．这一切老人都看在了眼里．

一个年轻人来了，他是个海员，就要出海了，他来祈求上帝保佑他出海平安，能够回来和他美丽的未婚妻结婚，这时，那位妇人回来找她的小提包，她一口咬定是年轻人拿了，两人在教堂内大打出手，老人看着这一切，再也忍不住了啊！
他告诉他们，你们别打了，小提包不是他拿的，是那个乞丐拿走了，接着他还把乞丐的样貌告诉了妇人，妇人听了，便去找那乞丐，不与那年轻人争吵了．

神叹息了一声：＂无知的人啊，我不是叫你不要说话么？你可知你闯了大祸，原本那乞丐可以得着今日的粮食，那妇人与那青年再争吵下去，便会误了开船的时间，那船此次出海必遭风浪，青年原本不必丧命的，如今恐怕他的未婚妻再也见不到他了啊．＂

朋友，也许你认为你遇到了人世间最悲惨的事情，但是请你相信，上帝的安排永远是最完美的．

My Friend

i just can say our door always at there and welcome you, my friend...no matter what happen you always in my best friends list...

“我为人人, 人人为我 ” VS “人不为己，天诛地灭 ”

我为人人可能以前还能用，还有些人会做到。

但是现在的社会，可能五只手指都能数完。

真是悲哀呀。

不能做到我为人人，但起码也要对得起自己的良心，
过得了自己哪一关。

举手之劳的事，但却要保住自己的利益而搞到那么麻烦。
唉。。。

{ 蒲公英 }

就让我像 蒲公英一样的

倔强

坚强 吧

就让我像 蒲公英一样的

在人间每一处都留下痕迹 吧

就让我的开朗积极的精神

像蒲公英一样

就算被“吹毁”

也不会消失

..:: Worry Night::...

sudden i felt want to write blog, so, i open my blog account immediately, if not i will give up to write....
i cant sleep well start from this second trimester, i worry about my studies, family, and my future...
i feel stress...really...i din bluff and joke this time...i confuse that is it i chosen a wrong way, chosen a wrong subject and future??? why do not i take banking and finance course?? 这次我真的没把握可以再次拿到好分数。Wednesday i have management accounting exam, i haven finish study; my English assignment haven started; next week have principles of finance and standard accounting and reporting exam, this two subject i really scare and do not know what lecturer teaching...maybe is me lazy to study... i really really lazy in this trimester...i dont know is it that i can continue and finish this about 5 years studies... did i chosen wrong way? i always tell myself i have to continue and persist....but i feel i cant recently...my Lord, please, please help me, bless me...i hope i am not alone to fight for this war....do not let my siblings or friends left from me...Amen....
i scare i no time to finish study for the subjects of this mid term exam...my Lord, please bless me, let me have a persistently heart....
好烦心阿。。。请赏赐予我坚定及勇敢的心，还有一颗开朗的心。
my group members i am apologize to you all if i did not do well my responsibility...
let all the thing goes smoothly, i do not worry about.....
打起精神来！！！加油！！你一定可以的！！一定要努力！！加油！！

希望每一天都是阳光普照。=D

yesterday i attend lefz's cousin wedding....that is wonderful, grand banquet, handsome bridegroom and of course the elegant bride...i hope that i will have a wedding like them....but that is a lot of money need...haha...lefz you have to gambateh lo and i always give the first change to you to be my bridegroom...hahahaha...i hope so....
我始终觉得生活在有钱家人中，对我来说还是种压力，找不到我的位置。我不喜欢这种不知本身地位及方向的感觉。可能现在的我还未到达那个层次的人吧。陈芳莹加油，有天你会做到的。
my friend, you were went far away to heaven, miss you...i know i have to appreciate relationship with others....miss~
feel so tired....haven feel have the mood to study....anna tan you must add oil!!!!!!!!

Dear my sis...

One week over...haven come out from the sad feeling, especially kenneth and uncle foo( i think)...
少了你，好像生活缺了一块，生活少了色彩，提不起劲。真的很后悔和你的回忆太少了，以为都会有下一次，怎么知。。。我的完美人生少了你，真的累。。。无言。。。我想我会变得更孤单吧。。。真的后悔没珍惜你我的相处时间。。。时间能倒退多好。。

再也不会被问：你们是姐妹吗？
再也不会被说我们长得很像。。。

一切只剩下回忆。。。

Time passed imperceptibly, first trimester holiday has left one week... but i still feel tired and my battery has not fully charged...i very like a person who can speak english smoothly, is very like.. like the pronunciation, the tones, the feeling...feel good...^^
During last week, i did nothing, eat, sleep, facebook, enjoy movie...my internet line is better than hostel, it is feel good can watch PPS... not enough sleep, always sleep late...sad...the following week i wish i can sleep early and sweet dream...
Actually planed go to KL with lefz but my father dont allow...i want to fly fly fly....i want to do what i hope to do...i want my freedom, but i know i cant, because i must, should and have to help my family....i cant fly out from the frame that my family given to me....my parent also suffer to survive in world and hardworking to give us good condition...i always complain and not willing to help them...i really FILIAL! BAD! but dont let me feel heavy...i also suffer i also cant breathe...but i have to thanks dad and mum..appreciation both of you din throw me out because my filial, impolite and not respect both of you..^^  =="
I think lefz sure very disappointed i din go to KL, haiz~~~
this Thursday may be got car driving exam, hope i can pass and get the P pass...haha.. wish God bless me please..^^ and the result hope can get satisfied marks...

..::* Registration Day *::...

not register for wedding..haha...today i registered my next sem course smoothly...^^my idea time table: monday start from 10am(actual: 8am); tuesday also start from 10am(actual: no class); wednesday start from 10am(actual: 8am); thursday start from 10am also(actual: 11am); friday hope no class(actual: 8am)
ah!!!!!!!!!! only two day in my hope..........sad =(
hope next sem will going to more good and interested...yeah!!!!!!
Yesterday i made a cheese cake...haha...but i think it is fail...hope i can make it more better and can gift my dear...^6^...

Dear Lord...

i pray that God can help me and give me effort to finish study all my subjects...让我打起精神，不要再懒惰。阿门。

Travel to Subang

Nice and happy travel....last week went to KL Subang with lefz...eat and eat...haha...good good...but my money out and out...so Bad!!!
on last day stay at my friend's new house, very comfortable...if my hostel like that i think i dont want go back ad...haha...
let see the food first...yummy yummy...

Sushi and see amber jelly..

面对面餐馆at Subang

"My Birthday"

Early in the morning, i had a car drive learning...felt happy because i know how the basic of driving car slowly and slowly...not bad...one day i will not let others potong my car and look down on me...^6^..
3pm my mum fetched me and my sis go to Jasco to learn how to promote notebook on this Fri, Sat and Sun pc fair( haven do revision..ish!! liao lah!)...took so long time to learn and have to explain again to the supervisor..finally end at 6pm something, my dear wait me so long and missed the 50% discount sushi..haiz...but we buy some inside Jasco...fetch my sis back home, and we go to "王朝" have our dinner...at night we go to watch movie "人间喜剧"...Not bad also, very funny both of the main Character...haha...

My dear cut his hair ad..haha..he did many thing for me..a warm feeling go through my whole body and deeply in my heart...i love you, my dear...Today i watch a short video, very touching..."如果不小心我们白头偕老,上帝保佑我们恩爱依然"..haha...

12am 28.7.2010 my birthday cake...<3

My ice cream cake..^^make by my sisters...

Thanks you all...^^

"深夜里"

突然想写blog,  绑起留了很久的头发, 发觉它长了不少... 
明天要去练驾车, 这次uncle最好别再放我飞机, 不然剪了他的飞机场...哈哈,变态...= ="
放假没什么plan, this few day just sleep eat and dating...haiz...so lazy and dont want do anything...haven start my revision and course works...ish....list down my course work and revision plan first...have to START, Anna Tan Fang Ying......
1. microeconomics assignment...
2. mpw assignment...
3. quantitative course work
4. micro revision...
5. quantitative revision...
6. account course work...
WAH! so many work have to do...can finish all within this week???? impossible for me...but MUST done all!!!!
Two more day is my birthday....at here thanks my mum born me and take care of me...thank you mum...love you...^^just dare say out at here...
i think my birthday just like that lo..like a normal day...我再也不会对朋友太用心，别说我小气，只是自己曾经用心，却换来感觉你们的不用心,　可能是我自己要求太多了.　不要求很多或很好的礼物，不要求很隆重的庆祝会,　但只要用心是感受到的. but i still appreciate, because you all still remember my birthday and make a special cake to me...before that i tell myself , i will know who is care me when my birthday... now i really know...ok...我放弃了,　一直以来我们的感情从来不是别人想象的好．我放弃你了.　一直以来有我关心你,对你的事都放在心上，虽然我没做的很好．你有事,我一定挺你,　可是我有事,　谁来问候我?　可能你会说,　每个人都要自己站起来,　可能我想要的关心你从来没给我,　也从不在我身上用心．说得好像男女朋友一样,　我们只是朋友．．．重感情的我,　很敏感,　小小的事会让我不开心．也许跟pei yun 一样，人前总是开心，说话伤到人,　有多少人了解？笑脸的背后，内心是悲伤的．真的在霖峰面前，我才是我,　那个最真的我.．有什么特别的?每个人都是这样吧，内心收了无数的秘密，从来也没有真正能无说不谈的知己,　以前的我们我想是的,但现在．．．再也不是单纯的朋友，是我变了还是她？内心的无奈说不出．．很多人认为别人是绕着狮子座的人转,　但我却不是,　只要我一放手,　再也不去接触到她,　我们就会只剩下室友和同学的身份．．唉.．再也不把你的事放在心.．不想再烦这些事．别再我面前出现你们很好的样子．拜托．．．谢谢．．
Have to start hardworking lo...成绩一定要保持...

"Shopping with Jie Mui"

Today activity start from 3.30pm something...go fetch pei li and then meet foo...when saw pei li, she wear so beauty and mature...but me..erm...childish?not actually lah...but is simple lo...lucky foo din wear so long zhong...
No money to shop lo, only got budget to buy shoes..when my RM340 come? i am so poor and pity...god please help me...feel lonely dont know why...no one know me, when with lin feng just i feel happy...where is my friend? where? where? where? where?.....................................................................................................................
I realize that lin feng is really sayang me....thanks my dear...very appreciate you and must...
The cendol ptptn play us lo...make people nervous and then let people disappointed...shit! faster approve me lo..very panic you know...cendol!
haiz..two word "no mood"!!!!!

"Early in the Morning"

6.49am so early i wake up...cant slp again after went to toilet. lefz 1am something just find me, pekcek, i know that he was doing his assignment, but he din send me any msg make me hurt you know...
lsat night i lied to my best friend ( HN), haiz~ i cant tell him the truth, i scare he will look down or bother me if i tell him...hope he will forgive my selfish ...
really dont know why, i moody...bacause of lefz? why? i always no mood because of him? i hate it! dont have any memory between us to make me smile again...
i haven take the undang exam, have to gambateh lo..if not dont know have to wait until when...
目前为止,学业上还没出现很大的问题...希望一直都不会出现, 不想有压力, 希望可以借ptptn...my dad dont need pay too much fees...thanks God...

"改头换面"

改头换面, 将我的部落格改了改,换了换..哈哈...最近又受朋友的感染,开始写回部落格..看见朋友们有个完全属于自己的小小天地,自己也想要一个..这叫心眼不好,哈哈..不停在想我有什么可以写呢?答案始终没出现...

真的觉得自己好不成熟,还是像以前一样,吃朋友的醋, 只不过是少话题了, 只不过对别人好, 更靠近其他人了, 只不过被排在后面了,需要难过吗?

难道我真的那么不可信赖?知心朋友不求多,但一个也没有, 可悲啊~ 要被信赖是件很困难的事, 但偶尔相信我, 我会尽量做得最好...朋友的不信赖,让我觉得难受,虽然我知道我并不是你最要好的朋友,但你却是我认识而且在一起最久的朋友,.当你对我说你不能对我说,让我觉得难过;当你对别人对我来得好,我会伤心;六七年的感情却抵不过一年的她,让我真的....我知道我给予的不多,但....请不要忽略我的感受....

有时我话不多, 没什么话题可聊, 所以尽量想话题, 可是这样好累...

我一直都跟着别人跑, 何时有人永远陪伴在我身边, 不管我是个多闷的人..我男友吗? 那么我的世界不就只有他?男性朋友靠得太近,只怕自己没有那么大的免疫力...

好不安, 怀疑这怀疑那的, 以前我从不相信霖峰身边朋友所说的话, 但现在我犹豫了, 好讨厌这么没自信的自己, 真的好讨厌他身边的蝴蝶. 一个在东,一个在西, 我们能给天长地久的承诺吗? 我担忧, 怀疑的性格,总有一天会让他厌恶的, 我该怎么办好, 控制不了自己去胡思乱想.....

如果注定要分开,倒不如现在来个了结?

我给予不了别人关心, 我又如何要求别人给予关心呢? 我好贪心, 我知道我拥有很多东西了, 但唯一得不到心安.....太在乎别人的眼光了, 无法忽视....

但感恩的是天主给予我的一切都是很好的....让自己脱离了天主, 再也找不着属于我的避难所....

祈求上主, 让我有力量及机会再靠近您...再次感受您的爱...没有您我失去了方向,祈求您带领我....啊们...