"Early in the Morning"

6.49am so early i wake up...cant slp again after went to toilet. lefz 1am something just find me, pekcek, i know that he was doing his assignment, but he din send me any msg make me hurt you know...
lsat night i lied to my best friend ( HN), haiz~ i cant tell him the truth, i scare he will look down or bother me if i tell him...hope he will forgive my selfish ...
really dont know why, i moody...bacause of lefz? why? i always no mood because of him? i hate it! dont have any memory between us to make me smile again...
i haven take the undang exam, have to gambateh lo..if not dont know have to wait until when...
目前为止,学业上还没出现很大的问题...希望一直都不会出现, 不想有压力, 希望可以借ptptn...my dad dont need pay too much fees...thanks God...

"改头换面"

改头换面, 将我的部落格改了改,换了换..哈哈...最近又受朋友的感染,开始写回部落格..看见朋友们有个完全属于自己的小小天地,自己也想要一个..这叫心眼不好,哈哈..不停在想我有什么可以写呢?答案始终没出现...

真的觉得自己好不成熟,还是像以前一样,吃朋友的醋, 只不过是少话题了, 只不过对别人好, 更靠近其他人了, 只不过被排在后面了,需要难过吗?

难道我真的那么不可信赖?知心朋友不求多,但一个也没有, 可悲啊~ 要被信赖是件很困难的事, 但偶尔相信我, 我会尽量做得最好...朋友的不信赖,让我觉得难受,虽然我知道我并不是你最要好的朋友,但你却是我认识而且在一起最久的朋友,.当你对我说你不能对我说,让我觉得难过;当你对别人对我来得好,我会伤心;六七年的感情却抵不过一年的她,让我真的....我知道我给予的不多,但....请不要忽略我的感受....

有时我话不多, 没什么话题可聊, 所以尽量想话题, 可是这样好累...

我一直都跟着别人跑, 何时有人永远陪伴在我身边, 不管我是个多闷的人..我男友吗? 那么我的世界不就只有他?男性朋友靠得太近,只怕自己没有那么大的免疫力...

好不安, 怀疑这怀疑那的, 以前我从不相信霖峰身边朋友所说的话, 但现在我犹豫了, 好讨厌这么没自信的自己, 真的好讨厌他身边的蝴蝶. 一个在东,一个在西, 我们能给天长地久的承诺吗? 我担忧, 怀疑的性格,总有一天会让他厌恶的, 我该怎么办好, 控制不了自己去胡思乱想.....

如果注定要分开,倒不如现在来个了结?

我给予不了别人关心, 我又如何要求别人给予关心呢? 我好贪心, 我知道我拥有很多东西了, 但唯一得不到心安.....太在乎别人的眼光了, 无法忽视....

但感恩的是天主给予我的一切都是很好的....让自己脱离了天主, 再也找不着属于我的避难所....

祈求上主, 让我有力量及机会再靠近您...再次感受您的爱...没有您我失去了方向,祈求您带领我....啊们...

Today i went out with my sisters,baby,sweetheart,darling,dar dar, and mui mui...dont know why today i felt like no mood to sing. but i am happy be with my sisters, got talk and joke... i cant accept baby again with faster, give me time, dont know i felt like dont want close with her, sorry if baby see this....i really dont know...some act i cant accept, i know my attitude is not good or accept by others maybe, but i cant force me to close with one that i not really like..maybe is friend but cant reach to sister level. very very very sorry to say that. i hope time can change my mind...

today, my dear dear go fun with his out stage friends( girls), i realise that i cant be big heart( da fang ) to accept this, I CANT, I HURT. He went out yum cha with them at night also...i really very pekcek. hor~ OMG! WTF! i cant to give me reason to calm down and be big heart...why must find my bf??? i go kl trip by myself. WHY you all cant settle all thing by urself???find room for urs, go play with urs, WHO are you all???? ask urs bf acc you all lah...

Am i very small gas? like this also want jealous.hor~one is ex gf and one is an lian target. how come i dont pekcek...pls, dont have next time...

陌生人~相识~相知~朋友~非常友好的buddy~朋友~陌生人
friendship recycle????
haha..when our friendship become like that???
In facebook never see our happy or gethering photo anymore, take it over is with other ppl...
so many problem in this sem, if always so happy like last sem 就好了.
but it is too late............
rush for assignment, for friendship, family....
because of all of this matter, we are getting in mad and moody...
so dissapointed when treat others like transparent even thought the one is so close with us before that...
haiz...
the busted assignment and presentation!!! i hate you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Welcome to me..haha..first times blogging, a bit panic..haha...hope i can continue my blog and not three mins hot temperature..hehe..

why i start blogging? because my friends happy with blogging...so, i try it...